Broken Open

At the gates of the medicine wheel

Broken open at each pass to the south

Colors skewed at youth in the arms of the grandmother

Trust built on two thrones driven by the fire

Stardust casting invisible walls to rage against

Broken open to loose control of fragmented opinion to dynamic confusion

Combustible under a blanket of feathers and beds made of tree cover

Misty windows pointed toward the dawn

Tinted black for hiding to take flight

Broken open in death while living surrendered to the word

Poetry

Replacing the journal of time and records in the ethers

Touching light just long enough to see past shortcomings manifested in maddening swells

Warm hearted to embrace the ground keeping the senses in check

Broken open in body and blood

Left to echoing snapshots of a chaotic space lost to the electric lobes vibrating the drums at night

Grabbing tightly to tiny fingers looking for the volcano of feminine essence

Broken open by fears and Holy Spirit thatched calmly with the sound of distant thunder

Hanging sparks of danger in captivated observance, locking feet in place determined to swim

No shelter

In the open

Flagging prayers plotting a course just beyond knowing

New roots coming on the heals of monsters and sagebrush

In the broken

Spots running across the scent of lilac in the doorway to mystery

Broken open.

Loneliness

Hello loneliness I love you

I feel you in my jaw causing tension in my throat

Floating down the side of my rib cage

Catching my breathe on bird wings and butterflies

Images in the back of the brain of love lost and settling down

Watching the twists and turns taking flight on the naval

Swimming in a pool of sunshine poking out the back

Fabulous loneliness pushing conversations towards any and all who wander

Human frailty cast upon isolation and fantasies of that face

Pressure to perfection in standing taller than the person I was before

Dainty loneliness how I hold you near

Comfort and care to place it at the center, with angels and cloud cover

Dreams

Soul search

Nature and pixies

Matching its moan to songs of brighter days

Phenomenal loneliness

Equal in all stride

Kissing all sides of earth

Giving it a second chance at waking

Guilt

Guilt I love you

My constant companion

The pillar of my thoughts

How I looked to you for comfort from my own judgement

Stuck in my throat never to reveal

Saving face in holy matrimony

Beloved guilt

Remembrance delivered and wandered at what could have been

Off the hook by personal standards of decorum

Walking myself off free from responsibilities to cry and come clean

Glorious guilt

Treasure of my heart how I honor you and all your teachings

Pointing me in a new direction

Far from resolve and close to exhale

Pin pricks in moments left heavy and grieving

A body of evidence to reminisce on today

Valuable guilt

A guide in the pocket

Visions

Sugarplums

Dancing with spirit

Free to explore

In Jesus and Tara

Along all saints

How elegant you dance

On crescent moons soon to rise again on the background of your beautiful life

Shame

Hello shame, I love you

Swaddling my rib cage

Buckling knees in shallow waters

Carried over from ancestors long dead and holding microscopes beyond the grave

Wonderful shame, how I adore you

Following my every move

Keeping things in line down the crowded hallway, past the nurses office

Staring out the door waiting for the whistle to blow off steam in a running takeoff

Dear dear shame, how lovely you are

To be a constant companion setting up a guarantee to belonging with the bloods and crypts who bore my life

We speak gentle

Subtle

Hidden

Bondage security to what I say and what you do

I love you shame

Through God and glory

Grace and Gaia

walk beside me so that I can see

Past

Visions

Spirit unleashed

Love

Re-wired

Fear

Hello fear I love you

Dark spots clogging throats

Pinching heart

And clouding mind

Marinated from the womb

Cultivated at the dinner table

Companion to the new world order

Dear fear

How I love you

Lost child neglected in the cold

Far from god

Left to devices automated

Shaking in thought

Worried by sight

Hidden from light

Wonderful fear

My darling to waking ascension

Innocent pucker

Squinty lids shut tight

Heartache and thunder

Shifting into the night

Captivating fear

How I love you so

Steady through the spirit

Visions

Love

Fear

I embrace you

Gloria

Grace

Be so