Breonna

asleep march 13th

barrage no biggy white face smiling

justified

just a flea black face to boot not blue so who are you

Breonna

worse nightmare we lock our doors for who. but white face smiling always gets through

Video game simulation all that training not gone to waste

zzzz,,,,,,,,,z,,,,,,asleep march 13th

white face smiling

Breonna

never saw it coming blood bath on fitted sheets

justice in the streets white face smiling

don’t go to sleep

,,,,,,,zzzzzzzz,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,one eye to the door

march 13th and a twenty dollar bill

white face smiling

don’t walk the streets

hold your breath ,,,zzzzz,,,,,,,,,,,,justified white face smiling

shut your mouth and maybe brains won’t be..zzzzz…….. blown

no guarantee white face smiling

Breonna

march 13th…zzzzz…,,,,,,zzzzz,,,,,

another annoyance..zzzzzzz. white face smiling.

I used to crave fame

But

I’d rather be real

I used to beg my dad for love

But

I’d rather be real

I used to chase after men

But

I’d rather be real

I used to dig for money

But

I’d rather be real

I used to be strong

But

I’d rather be real

I used to be liked

But

I’d rather be real

Who controls your life?

There is a secret force driving all our actions, who is at the wheel.

Am I In charge or does a collection of experience point down one rigid path.

Do the parents run our lives at 10, 40 or 80, lecturing us beyond the grave

How would our friends react if the path takes a turn and heart leads the way

Who is in control?

Spirit contracts forcing us to combat deception and manipulate as a honor at the pearly gates

Jesus, Abraham, Einstein and a dogma we don’t dare defy

Who is in control?

Celebrities and CEO’s checking for lipstick on the collar and investments in social media

Who is in control?

The feelings we are not allowed to have and emptiness locked in addiction

Who is in Control?

Free will or will you set me free angels and atheist looking good but matters not.

There is no control

Just surrender and do better

Contrast and compassion

Forgiveness and insight

To make us feel that who in the mirror

In Control

Blessings and thank you

insecurity for giving me motivation to grow beyond my smallness

Blessings and thank you

back pain for helping me to know anatomy more than the average person

Blessings and thank you

poverty for forcing me into compassion for all walks of life

Blessings and thank you

heartbreak for teaching me what I want, deserve and won’t put up with

Blessings and thank you

child abuse for expanding my empathy past my own self rightousness

Blessings and thank you

failure for focusing me back on simple joys

Blessings and thank you

war and injustice for inciting a passion for knowledge and history

Blessings and thank you

disappointment for steering me away from codependency and illusion

Blessings and thank you

imperfections for allowing me to come back into my body

Blessings and thank you

life for never working out how I thought but always according to how I feel

Blessings and thank you

authenticity for bringing me to my knees to surprise myself

Blessings and thank you

self forgiveness for giving me perspective on others and a lighter heart

Blessings

Thank you

experience it all

One life

One life

before

eternity

Blessings

Thank you

This earth school

we think ends at high school graduation

but it don’t

This earth school

college puts the icing on the cake

but it ain’t

This earth school

settled at the office we reward the good

but they aren’t

This earth school

we feel done raising the kids

but we’re not

This earth school

got the gold watch and certificate to boot

but still want

This earth school

we know effort on the death bed

but confessions can’t

This earth school

we hope to get it right the next time through

but we forget

This earth school

is for now

but he don’t

and she ain’t

though it aren’t

see it not

have them want

watch us can’t

will they forget

This Earth School