Conscious love

sorry about the first few versions the ghost in the computer kept posting them mysteriously as I was working

leahjoyp. MayaRose SpokenWord's avatarMaya Rose

Conscious Love

superficial

Technological  Distance

Radical self acceptance

Rocking chair love interrupted

Serene inheritance corrupted

Text style dating

Media connection

Screen shot necklace

A haze of what’s to come

Eye looking terror

Thrown intimacy from afar

Playground swinging

delighted in the breeze

Lost in pleasure free to twirl

Chasing isolation on pounding walls

Hopping in and out of habits tricked by fairy tales

Suppressed needs to pride mommy away awaiting papa at the door

Tail wagging barking up the wrong tree

Twinkle darling on the surface of smoke rings and phone quotes

until reality sets in and loneliness pops out long enough to to drink it back

Effort demons set free in conscious love stuck lazy

Daze on and on in daydream

Casting Peter Pan at the window and tinker bell on the floor

Heart space stagnation breeds bravery to cry and courage to fail

Making lovers out of cowards locked in…

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Dispell

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Needs rising to the surface escaping the swat down of no longer can contain

Such a pain that lies in the buried past of shared illusion and scar tissue made hard by soft presence trying to break free.

The surface dust of a desperate revival of feminine masculine powerful on all levels

broke down by baggage claim costing more than the heart can allow.

What are you willing to do to let go to resolve before the grave of dark transcends us to the kiss lost in the sun.  Hearing my mom’s voice in my head beyond the screams left wisdom behind in profound forgiveness of a strength made rugged by daily life.

Tried and true through all sorts of crazy that makes fun of bygone years.  Crushing a mold of sisters left silent and drained in courage turned the other way.  Too short life forces us to hold on in dysfunctional small causing panic at the thought of my own two feet.

Forgiveness we start again but does little to dispel the patterns of a hero disguised as daddy super pressure no measure can be met.  A pattern unavailable to be set free in failed attempts to cry it open.  Prayers upon prayers to the silent voice in the sky I struggle to hear in a tantrum of smoke circles.

Privileged to pry open the cage of withered parts placing a valley between me and love in a dim understanding of that its meant to be.  Sweeping up the crumbs left on the table and swallowing it up to gain a new self left off before the lights twinkled in the daydream of bubbles and babies.  No second chances when fate takes its hand pulling at a string severed outside my control.  Ironic in connection serving value yet isolation breeds reality.

Brothers past pleads of surface scrapes pretending at division.  Victims of the same wonderment played over a hum of peace and longing.  Disagreements made fatal by ice smiling proper.  Rainbows, unicorns and fairies legitimate in the pause of take a break and thank you much. Putting it all into a hollowed tube to be found in the distant future or traveled on an island washed up as a precious memory holding hands to a budding romance heard quiver in the ocean.

Confessions of an Earth Day Defector

leahjoyp. MayaRose SpokenWord's avatarMaya Rose

I consider myself Earthday photoa novice environmentalist with a dream of one day holding the title of hard core green goddess, though after a long hard look at myself, I found some, let’s say, mis-alignments and inconsistencies that have been a wee bit hard to admit. These inconsistencies have sat me in a place of guilt and shame at times. I have a strong vision of a world, or community for that matter, where the water is clean, the air is fresh, the food is real and the land is lush. Reality shows that pollution is common, food is modified, concrete and cartoon grass is all around us and I’ve come across lakes, ponds and rivers that carry the un-posted sign of “enter at your own risk”. The drought in California has increased the pressure I put on myself to save the world through recycling.

I feel the need to call…

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By my Side

What do I need to do to get your attention

Toot my own horn

Toot

Toot

Depreciate my life in destructive depression

Covered in codependent wish you where here

A separate island

Your house of mystery

Mine decorated in chaotic pristine

Sun chimes mesmerizing my frantic mind

Serene indulgence

I’ll bury feelings with a smile

Cool

Calm

Collected

A distance so painful the dust caught in my nose

If the balloon could just pop and reveal all the world

World weary and determined to make us proud

Cat’s in the cradle

Silver spoon tarnished till I forgot to care

Conjuring up the best of circumstances dancing in your world

Anything to get a crumb

The beauty of white teeth

Validation and a nod

Daddyless daughter in disguise

Using love

Riding on its strings of I know better

And what else

Feeling the kindred

Bypass

Karma to care less and love more

Jist

To the wit of the mundane that means everything

See me cry behind the glass fogged up

Wilting my flower

Needing your water

Reaching to the sun

Whispering now

My screams left silent to the one to bear witness

Monk wandering till the day

Relentless

Casting my shadow

Forever

Embraced

Companion

By my side