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Conscious love
sorry about the first few versions the ghost in the computer kept posting them mysteriously as I was working

superficial
Technological Distance
Radical self acceptance
Rocking chair love interrupted
Serene inheritance corrupted
Text style dating
Media connection
Screen shot necklace
A haze of what’s to come
Eye looking terror
Thrown intimacy from afar
Playground swinging
delighted in the breeze
Lost in pleasure free to twirl
Chasing isolation on pounding walls
Hopping in and out of habits tricked by fairy tales
Suppressed needs to pride mommy away awaiting papa at the door
Tail wagging barking up the wrong tree
Twinkle darling on the surface of smoke rings and phone quotes
until reality sets in and loneliness pops out long enough to to drink it back
Effort demons set free in conscious love stuck lazy
Daze on and on in daydream
Casting Peter Pan at the window and tinker bell on the floor
Heart space stagnation breeds bravery to cry and courage to fail
Making lovers out of cowards locked in…
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Dispell

Needs rising to the surface escaping the swat down of no longer can contain
Such a pain that lies in the buried past of shared illusion and scar tissue made hard by soft presence trying to break free.
The surface dust of a desperate revival of feminine masculine powerful on all levels
broke down by baggage claim costing more than the heart can allow.
What are you willing to do to let go to resolve before the grave of dark transcends us to the kiss lost in the sun. Hearing my mom’s voice in my head beyond the screams left wisdom behind in profound forgiveness of a strength made rugged by daily life.
Tried and true through all sorts of crazy that makes fun of bygone years. Crushing a mold of sisters left silent and drained in courage turned the other way. Too short life forces us to hold on in dysfunctional small causing panic at the thought of my own two feet.
Forgiveness we start again but does little to dispel the patterns of a hero disguised as daddy super pressure no measure can be met. A pattern unavailable to be set free in failed attempts to cry it open. Prayers upon prayers to the silent voice in the sky I struggle to hear in a tantrum of smoke circles.
Privileged to pry open the cage of withered parts placing a valley between me and love in a dim understanding of that its meant to be. Sweeping up the crumbs left on the table and swallowing it up to gain a new self left off before the lights twinkled in the daydream of bubbles and babies. No second chances when fate takes its hand pulling at a string severed outside my control. Ironic in connection serving value yet isolation breeds reality.
Brothers past pleads of surface scrapes pretending at division. Victims of the same wonderment played over a hum of peace and longing. Disagreements made fatal by ice smiling proper. Rainbows, unicorns and fairies legitimate in the pause of take a break and thank you much. Putting it all into a hollowed tube to be found in the distant future or traveled on an island washed up as a precious memory holding hands to a budding romance heard quiver in the ocean.
Confessions of an Earth Day Defector
I consider myself
a novice environmentalist with a dream of one day holding the title of hard core green goddess, though after a long hard look at myself, I found some, let’s say, mis-alignments and inconsistencies that have been a wee bit hard to admit. These inconsistencies have sat me in a place of guilt and shame at times. I have a strong vision of a world, or community for that matter, where the water is clean, the air is fresh, the food is real and the land is lush. Reality shows that pollution is common, food is modified, concrete and cartoon grass is all around us and I’ve come across lakes, ponds and rivers that carry the un-posted sign of “enter at your own risk”. The drought in California has increased the pressure I put on myself to save the world through recycling.
I feel the need to call…
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By my Side
What do I need to do to get your attention
Toot my own horn
Toot
Toot
Depreciate my life in destructive depression
Covered in codependent wish you where here
A separate island
Your house of mystery
Mine decorated in chaotic pristine
Sun chimes mesmerizing my frantic mind
Serene indulgence
I’ll bury feelings with a smile
Cool
Calm
Collected
A distance so painful the dust caught in my nose
If the balloon could just pop and reveal all the world
World weary and determined to make us proud
Cat’s in the cradle
Silver spoon tarnished till I forgot to care
Conjuring up the best of circumstances dancing in your world
Anything to get a crumb
The beauty of white teeth
Validation and a nod
Daddyless daughter in disguise
Using love
Riding on its strings of I know better
And what else
Feeling the kindred
Bypass
Karma to care less and love more
Jist
To the wit of the mundane that means everything
See me cry behind the glass fogged up
Wilting my flower
Needing your water
Reaching to the sun
Whispering now
My screams left silent to the one to bear witness
Monk wandering till the day
Relentless
Casting my shadow
Forever
Embraced
Companion
By my side