Conscious love

sorry about the first few versions the ghost in the computer kept posting them mysteriously as I was working

leahjoyp. MayaRose SpokenWord's avatarMaya Rose

Conscious Love

superficial

Technological  Distance

Radical self acceptance

Rocking chair love interrupted

Serene inheritance corrupted

Text style dating

Media connection

Screen shot necklace

A haze of what’s to come

Eye looking terror

Thrown intimacy from afar

Playground swinging

delighted in the breeze

Lost in pleasure free to twirl

Chasing isolation on pounding walls

Hopping in and out of habits tricked by fairy tales

Suppressed needs to pride mommy away awaiting papa at the door

Tail wagging barking up the wrong tree

Twinkle darling on the surface of smoke rings and phone quotes

until reality sets in and loneliness pops out long enough to to drink it back

Effort demons set free in conscious love stuck lazy

Daze on and on in daydream

Casting Peter Pan at the window and tinker bell on the floor

Heart space stagnation breeds bravery to cry and courage to fail

Making lovers out of cowards locked in…

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Conscious love

Conscious Love

superficial

Technological  Distance

Radical self acceptance

Rocking chair love interrupted

Serene inheritance corrupted

Text style dating

Media connection

Screen shot necklace

A haze of what’s to come

Eye looking terror

Thrown intimacy from afar

Playground swinging

delighted in the breeze

Lost in pleasure free to twirl

Chasing isolation on pounding walls

Hopping in and out of habits tricked by fairy tales

Suppressed needs to pride mommy away awaiting papa at the door

Tail wagging barking up the wrong tree

Twinkle darling on the surface of smoke rings and phone quotes

until reality sets in and loneliness pops out long enough to to drink it back

Effort demons set free in conscious love stuck lazy

Daze on and on in daydream

Casting Peter Pan at the window and tinker bell on the floor

Heart space stagnation breeds bravery to cry and courage to fail

Making lovers out of cowards locked in closets underground

worthy witness blames the mirror

Autonomy built on fear fused needy desperation in the cotton tails of the mad hatter

Return dear one to joy in simple soul gaze and hand hold to make you my smile

and I your sun

Keep off this ground of Get this, Do that and for what’s sake and take my lips for your

rain by your arms as my earth

Let noise go from false friends and fan base for air in my breath as I quench off your

tears

Merge in the one placing wings on your back falling into the dark swallowed up in the

stars sealed off forever with a kiss

Dispell

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Needs rising to the surface escaping the swat down of no longer can contain

Such a pain that lies in the buried past of shared illusion and scar tissue made hard by soft presence trying to break free.

The surface dust of a desperate revival of feminine masculine powerful on all levels

broke down by baggage claim costing more than the heart can allow.

What are you willing to do to let go to resolve before the grave of dark transcends us to the kiss lost in the sun.  Hearing my mom’s voice in my head beyond the screams left wisdom behind in profound forgiveness of a strength made rugged by daily life.

Tried and true through all sorts of crazy that makes fun of bygone years.  Crushing a mold of sisters left silent and drained in courage turned the other way.  Too short life forces us to hold on in dysfunctional small causing panic at the thought of my own two feet.

Forgiveness we start again but does little to dispel the patterns of a hero disguised as daddy super pressure no measure can be met.  A pattern unavailable to be set free in failed attempts to cry it open.  Prayers upon prayers to the silent voice in the sky I struggle to hear in a tantrum of smoke circles.

Privileged to pry open the cage of withered parts placing a valley between me and love in a dim understanding of that its meant to be.  Sweeping up the crumbs left on the table and swallowing it up to gain a new self left off before the lights twinkled in the daydream of bubbles and babies.  No second chances when fate takes its hand pulling at a string severed outside my control.  Ironic in connection serving value yet isolation breeds reality.

Brothers past pleads of surface scrapes pretending at division.  Victims of the same wonderment played over a hum of peace and longing.  Disagreements made fatal by ice smiling proper.  Rainbows, unicorns and fairies legitimate in the pause of take a break and thank you much. Putting it all into a hollowed tube to be found in the distant future or traveled on an island washed up as a precious memory holding hands to a budding romance heard quiver in the ocean.

Yet to be

Scales down my back
Prickling holes balanced lightly wobbling topside towards the plaster heart in the bowels of a Buddha belly twisted in knots.
By divine grace faint sight squints rays of glory on the horizon of the imagination.
…remindIMG_5364er reflected in the mirror lake distorted from imperfection.  Seductively skipping the surface below the glimmer of sun peaking beyond all cumulus that Touched briefly the gift of love.
…to the wishing well penny paradise grasps this shadow dancing circles around work yet to be done…..as Silly raindrops collected in the folds of the nose still laughing at the eyes for tearing down the concrete determination to move forward.
A puff of smoke to hide behind while observant of all and nothing making sense of isolation.  Rolling to the center of the bed crushed by the warmth of anticipated breath gusting at wings crippled to take flight and deepening a grief lost to ordinary life clicking keystrokes to see if anyone is listening. Worthiness taken for granted woven comfort into nurturing doubt…….striving to fix the undone vision of all that can be and will never succeed behind the dimension of what’s to come. Sipping it slowly Savoring the promise of time etched in a grain of rice dangling over the Now above the beat of my heart.

Confessions of an Earth Day Defector

leahjoyp. MayaRose SpokenWord's avatarMaya Rose

I consider myself Earthday photoa novice environmentalist with a dream of one day holding the title of hard core green goddess, though after a long hard look at myself, I found some, let’s say, mis-alignments and inconsistencies that have been a wee bit hard to admit. These inconsistencies have sat me in a place of guilt and shame at times. I have a strong vision of a world, or community for that matter, where the water is clean, the air is fresh, the food is real and the land is lush. Reality shows that pollution is common, food is modified, concrete and cartoon grass is all around us and I’ve come across lakes, ponds and rivers that carry the un-posted sign of “enter at your own risk”. The drought in California has increased the pressure I put on myself to save the world through recycling.

I feel the need to call…

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